Saturday, November 1, 2014

She smiled, He smiled, She smiled

                       "This is my most favorite place in the town" he said as he leaned back on to the cold marble stone on top of the tiny hill. She leaned back on the stone too, side of him. A million stars can be seen, gleaming in the beautiful summer sky.
                        " The stars make me feel small, insignificant. It makes me feel really good" he said. She did not understand how insignificance can make him feel good. However, his words made her smile. A town clock sounded in the distance , announcing the descent of midnight. He looked at her and an involuntary smile spread over his face. He closed his eyes, taking in her scent. She smelled of jasmine, it reminded him of a beautiful dream.

                        " How was your day?"  he asked.
                        " The usual" she replied " I finally got done with the analysis report. Big load off the plate" she stretched her hand towards the sky. If felt soo relaxing. 
                        " How was yours ?" she asked.                  
                          Before he could answer, his phone started ringing.  He looked at the phone screen for a moment and cut the call.
                         " Its Raj" he said. " I think he wants to discuss over our collaborative project" 
                         " You should have picked up the call" she said turning slightly towards him.
                         " I can talk to him later" he said, moving slightly closer towards her. His phone rang again. This time, he switched it off without looking at the screen.

                         A tiny smile crept up her lips. " Whom do you like the most? Your mom or dad?" she asked looking at the sky. Dark clouds started forming in the sky.
                        " Mom of course" he said instantly. She looked at him amused. " I like my dad too" he said with a reassuring smile. " Family is the important thing to me in this whole world. My mom, my dad, my sister, my brother.. they mean the world to me. If anyone ever think of hurting them, I will kill them "                    
                       It started drizzling lightly.
                       " I think we should go" she said as she picked up her phone. He got up slowly, feeling the rain drops on his face.  " I will not let anyone hurt you too" he said quietly.  She pretended not to hear him . They walked back quickly towards her place, as the rain started gaining momentum.
                       " Have a good night " she said as she handed him an umbrella  standing on her door step. The rain is now pouring in heavily.
                        " Take care" he replied as he casually touched her waist.
                        As she closed the door, a big smile spread on her face. It felt nice, it felt like the start of something beautiful...

                         He reached his house, a smile lingering on his face. He knew what is going to happen. Brushing his wet hair aside , he switched on his phone. There were 7 voice mails and 10 messages, all of them from Radhika. Before he could look through any of them, his phone rang again,
                         "Radhika" he said over the phone, his smile widened.
                         "Where were you? I was tensed? Why was your phone switched off? I missed you" sounded an anxious female voice from the other side of the call.
                         " Sorry baby. I was in a meeting with Raj. We were discussing about our collaborative project. I think the battery was low and the phone got switched off"  he paused,
                                             " How was your day?" ...

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

What is love !!?

                                                  The path ahead flickers..
                                                  The light goes low...
                                                  Shallow breathe and my body shivers..
                                                  As I lay on the snow...

                                                  Today is the day, the day you said no
                                                  Stabbed my heart with an ice cold knife
                                                  " I never felt that way, please let go"
                                                  How can I ? How can I let go of my life?

                                                  How do I tell you..
                                                  Tell you how much you mean?
                                                  How do I tell you..
                                                  That for my heart you are the queen?

                                                  Your smile washes away my sorrows
                                                  Your scent reminds me of a beautiful dream
                                                  Be with me, and beautiful will be our tomorrow
                                                  Without you I am falling into the loneliest regime

Maggie made it to the train just in time. Oh what a day it was! Her alarm refused to wake her up; then when she finally woke up an hour late she successfully managed to create a mini water fountain in her apartment, thanks to the clogged drain during her shower. To top it all, she gets a text from Mohit in the very last moment saying he can no longer drop her off at the station due to a flat tyre. She highly doubted Mohit's excuse. Knowing him, he probably just bumped into a random hot girl and was busy trying to impress her.

Maggie made her way through the compartments looking for a place to sit. Finally she found a nearly empty compartment with a guy sitting in one of the corners. He seemed to be deeply engrossed in a book. Maggie dumped her luggage into one of the seats and made herself comfortable. The guy was totally lost in the book. He never even looked up.

                                " Hi, I am Maggie " she greeted the guy.That is the thing about Maggie. She cannot sit quietly for more than a minute. He finally looked up from the book. He is a handsome guy, with sharp features.

                               " Hi" he replied back. " I am Alex". He gave a small smile that went all the way up to his eyes. It was a beautiful smile. Maggie silently thanked God.

                              " So going to New York?" asked Maggie. Sitting on a train heading towards New York, it would have been surprising if he had other options.

                               " Of course" he replied.  " I presume you are going there too" he added with a hint of mischief in his tone.

                               " Yes" replied a slightly flustered Maggie. " Is the book interesting?" she asked pointing towards the book he was reading , trying to change the topic.

                               " This is something I wrote actually. It is not a book, more like a journal." he replied.  " What is it about?" asked Maggie, trying to sound interested. She always thought writers were boring, however if the writer is as handsome as Alex; she can make an exception.

                               " That is difficult to say " he replied after a pause. " It is about a girl, a very special girl. Infact I am going to New York to meet her." Maggie's heart sank. Her bad luck seems to have not left her.
                              " Girl friend?" she asked, desperately hoping for the answer to be a no.

                              " I wish" he chuckled. " I love her , she doesn't" he added casually. She must be out of her mind thought Maggie. Which girl can ever say no to such a handsome guy!

                              " So you told her that you love her?" asked Maggie.

                              "Yes, almost an year back. She said no. She said she never felt that way towards me" though he tried to sound casual , his eyes gave away his sadness.

                              " You are going to do it again today?" Maggie asked. Something told her that she already know the answer. He gave her a shy smile. Maggie never understood why people always stick with things that hurt them ? Why can't they get rid of them and keep life simple and painless?

                            " What makes you think she will say yes this time?" the words came out even before she could stop herself. "Sorry I did not mean to sound rude."

                           Alex smiled. "Maggie if you want something, really want it, want it with all your heart and soul, try how much ever hard you can, you cannot give up on it. Only few things in life are worth fighting for" He pulled a photo from his wallet. "This was me a year ago". Staring from the photo was a smiling fat guy. This cannot be Alex. No way!

                          Alex laughed looking at the disbelief on Maggie's face." Yeah, lost around 50 pounds, built some muscle and all the good stuff" he said.

                          " So becoming fit is your way of fighting for her?" asked Maggie. The sarcasm in her tone is not lost on Alex.

                          " This made me confident. Becoming confident is bettering myself. Bettering myself is my way of fighting for her." he said simply. "The first time she said no,  I just couldn't take it. I was not able to talk to anyone for a while. Then I started thinking, started understanding. I have my reasons to love her. She probably never saw any reasons to love me. From that day I decided, to become someone better, someone who can show her reasons to love him. I decided to make myself worthy of her".

                        Maggie is confused " Isn't love all about being accepted for who you are? At least isn't that what is shown in all the romantic movies?"

                        " You are right in a way. I definitely cannot change completely.  I cannot change my tastes, my values, my core roots. Even if i try to change them , change will only last momentarily. However I can change in terms of thinking, personality and attitude towards life." his voice was low and it seemed like he was talking more to himself. "After she said no, I started introspecting into myself. I realized I was fickle minded, I was not confident, my life depended on others decision, I used to give up easily and worst , I never realized these things about me till that day. I struggled, I felt pain but now I am changed for good. ".

                       " It must have been difficult? Wasn't it ?" Maggie asked.

                       " Difficult!!" laughed Alex. " Difficult is an understatement. Testing myself every moment, ripping myself off to understand the inner me, extending my limits at every opportunity; yes Maggie it was difficult. But it was worth every bit of struggle. Though I started this whole thing for her,  at the end I realized I was doing myself a favor. The change in me  reflected in all walks of my life. Now I am more confident  and I know what I want from life . Over the past year , I got two promotions in work. Having wanting love so desperately, I was able to understand  and appreciate the love of family and friends. Today I have a set of people in my life whom I can always rely on, something which I never before had. I started loving myself like never before. "

                        Maggie listened intently. She had never seen someone who made the worst of life to the best of their advantage. Maybe this is what leaders are made of she thought.

                      " What if she says no today?" she asked in a low voice.

                       Alex did not reply. " I do not want to think about it" he replied after a long pause. " Every rejection is a reason to better myself I guess".

                       Maggie smiled. " One day, I hope I can find such love" she said.

                                                " Or one day, you can become someone's such love" said Alex with a sly smile.

The train reached the station....
                                                  Your tears I can see
                                                  Your pain I can feel
                                                  You say you love me
                                                  But how do I know it is real?

                                                  For all I know, this is pure plain lust
                                                  Today you say love, today you talk sweet
                                                  I am not trying to be mean, nor being unjust
                                                  But telling me how much you love, does not make love complete..

                                                  Cause it is not something to tell, but more to show
                                                  Show that you can change, show that you can reach higher 
                                                  If I am the Juliet, try be my romeo
                                                  Make yourself someone, someone I desire

Sunday, May 11, 2014

Remember, Remember....

Maya sat in the corner of the room as she eyed the handsome guy talking away to his friends. If it was not for him, she would have left the party long ago. Megh-Mory party, more famously referred to as Megh-Moron party is an annual event in the little town of Girth. It always comprised of the same set of guests every year- the 'boring boys' who sat at one corner and talked about every boring topic under the sun, the 'sarcastic sisters' whose aim and ambition lies in passing comments on each and every person in the room,  the 'ignorant idiots' , the ' flirty fools'  , the ' blabbering blabberers  ' ... what a boring party !!
                          " Everyone" came a loud voice from the far end of the room. Maya forced herself to look away from the handsome guy to find the source of the voice. " Everyone " he repeated again , a tall guy with a boyish grin,  "now that we are here, and now that we need to stay for another two hours to count this as a good party, why don't we turn on the music and show off our dance moves?" People were confused, some were downright shocked. Is he out of his mind?  Megh Moron party isn't supposed to be dance, music and fun. It is supposed to be boring, dull and more boring. However, some brave soul turned on the music; and a few more brave souls started dancing. Maya smiled. Maybe she can ask the handsome guy for a dance?

Maya dozed off in Prof. Coi class. Prof. Coi is a great man, so great that he can talk even on the most interesting topics in the most boring way. Some one nudged her. She woke up with a start. Porf. Coi was looking at her directly. He stared at her for a whole two minutes, and finally seem to decide that she was not worth his time. Maya looked around to thank the person who woke her up. It was the same tall guy from the party, again flashing his boyish grin. She mouthed him a silent thank you.

What a jerk Tim is! He again cancelled on their date. Why does she keep going back to people who hurt her the most? Maya sat at the bus stop, her eyes swelled up with tears and make up smudged all over her pretty face.
                                               " Are you ok?"
She turned around to see who it was. It is the same tall guy with the boyish grin, except now his grin is replaced with a frown. He looked at her inquiringly.
                                               " Yes I am fine" she replied in a croaky voice, though her eyes gave away the truth. He sat beside her and told a stupid joke. Yes, it was a stupid joke; but it made her smile. She forgot her pain for the moment.

It is Megh-Moron's party time again. Now that she broke up with Tim, Maya came to the party seeking some fun.What was she thinking?! Megh Moron party is not supposed to be fun! She really wished that the tall guy with the boyish grin would come this year too and surprise the people again.
Two people behind her were engaged in a deep conversation
                                               " Do you remember the guy who asked everyone to dance around last time?"
                                                " Yeah cool chap. What about him?"
                                                " He died yesterday"

Maya's entire body froze. She stood stand still. His boyish grin flashed before her eyes.. Her heart gave out a silent cry.

Many times in life, we come across people who make us laugh, help us, amaze us. Sometimes we go on to become great friends with them, sometimes we might not even get far enough to know their names. If ever, you want to tell them how different and special they are, do it today for who knows what tidings tomorrow might bring? 

In the memory of my friend Ashish who is no more among us.

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

My Fair Lady

                                 Maggie's phone beeped. Its a text from Steel,
                                               " Up for the night ?"

The text confused her a little. Steel never really texts her, and definitely not so late into the night. Steel is Lillian's fiance. To call him a friend would be an overstatement. He is just a person she come across some weekends, when she and  Lillian sit together to have a good beer and chat about every other nonsensical thing in the world. Today had been one such day.
                                  " What's happening tonight?" she texted back.
                                  " Anything can happen. All you need to do is ask" came a fast reply.

Maggie was a bit taken aback.
                                 " Did you text a wrong person? "

The reply was not so fast this time,
                                 " You are such a tease Maggie. With those words, and with those deep neck dresses. Maggie, just say it and I am all yours for the night, my hottie."

Maggie stared at the text. Disbelief, anger, numbness....
The more she absorbed the text, the more she felt grossed out. Steel, Lillian's fiance... Steel, a guy whom she never really noticed... Steel, who just texted her to have sex....
                                 " Are you kidding me? Are you totally out of your mind?"   Her whole body trembled. Trembled with anger at Steel, and ... deep neck dresses he said. She looked in the mirror. She stared at her dress.

                                 " Of course I was kidding. I can never look at you that way" came a reply. An other text followed immediately,
                                 " Let us not mention this to Lillian though. You know how she is. She can never understand jokes. "

She continued staring into the mirror.  She did not see a woman in a deep neck dress. Tease? Hottie?? Rather she saw a confident woman, a confident woman in a well fitted dress. She is not a rule-book-woman; those woman who dress conservatively, never speak out their mind and cannot protest against abuse. She is a woman who knows what she wants, speaks out her mind when needed and can definitely kick someone in their balls if they misbehave.

She closed her eyes. Lillian will probably be free tomorrow at 5......

                                       " Not a thing, to be possessed
                                         Nor a piece ,to be exploited
                                         For she has feelings, real and just;
                                         My fair lady, you deserve the best"

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

                                      " A bumpy hill, a barren desert,
                                        Life goes on swirling dirt
                                        A beautiful lake, a flowery road,
                                        Life goes on leading to the heavenly abode.."

Day 1
He is tired. He still has work to do before he sleeps. He glances at his watch. It is almost one in the night. He texts her  "Are you awake?" doubtful of a reply. However a reply comes soon " About to sleep". A faint smile appears on his face and he gets back to work.

Day 2
Peter chugged an entire beer. Emily is dancing all around the place. Jared is blasting on a peppy number. The party is great , the party is in full swing. He flicks through a photo album in his phone. Amidst all the photos of her, there is a photo of them- together. He glances at it for a while. Now he feels great, now he feels at place.

Day 3
Another hard night at work. It is six in the morning, by the time he is done. As his eyes droop down, he steadies himself. Maybe he should get some coffee. He is meeting her for breakfast at eight.

Day 4
A long long fight. Of course she is wrong. She does not make sense.... ever. He closes his eyes for a moment of peace. An image of her beautiful smile flashes by. He calls her....." Sorry, it is all my fault"

Day 5
She texts him
" I am so excited. Finally Jack and I will be in the same city. I missed him dearly"
An hour later, another text
" I am leaving for airport in thirty minutes. Will you be coming to give a send off?"
Now she calls. A few more times.
Finally, another text
" I really wanted to meet you before I left. I will miss you"

He closes his eyes, a silent tear flows down.

                                      " Life goes on, it always does
                                        Days of sunshine are plenty and abundant,
                                        But when I have to survive, when I have to fight,
                                        Your happiness will be my absolute delight"